I couldn't see you leave

I couldn't see you leave

My nights were spent as I hear you speak,

My nights also spent as I stop you speak,

Night passed by as I hear you breathe,

And so often woke me up when I no longer hear you breathe.

Now I tell my child the days that I passed.

Feeling his breath with the dorsum of my hand hearing him go numb.

Following him everywhere that promised him days few more.

And often hopelessly chasing life that for sure one day give in.

Those were the days we were meant to celebrate.

But fate kept us together more when days were bad.

And bad days are known to last longer than the good,

So did I hope to be aside you till you are gone.

Not many days did I spend since the day I had left, to return soon.

And now I hear the news that you are no longer alive.

I brood that when I was near, I saw you die daily.

But when you did die, I could not see you die!