Nothing much lost

Now I do not feel as bad, when I think of the girl I loved, but couldn't marry.

Marriage is made into a business and love can never survive here.

I loved her, was closer for 2 years, but I still remember her even now

May be love wouldn't have survived, had we been married.

Not her nor me to blame; she still remains the best in my life.


Now I do not feel as bad for not making something I loved, into profession

Business kills love, and I would have been sold along with my art

Doing the same thing that sells again and again; for the sake of money

Would have made my life so worse that I could not even acknowledge


Good that I do not have much to my possession

Though at times, I wish I had more

But how less sorrowful I will be; as I will have so less to lose


Sometimes when lonely, wish someone was right beside.

But again feel safe to be with myself; lonely though.

Worse than this is to be in crowds and even worse if some are morons.

It does not take long to degrade others to my level or be degraded to else's level.

Nothing much lost and it's not as bad as it seems.

How gainful I feel, to be with just myself.


.....<To Continue>




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