I feel miserable to be part of humanity

I am known to belong to the same species as human.

And I feel so sorry for myself to be that way.

There is nothing worth man could do, that I realise.

Creating the solution for the problem he created and then himself getting trapped at it.

No man I found ever who spoke well unless he has a hidden agenda.

He calls himself the most intelligent of all species.

Is he such a fool to score himself so well at the school he himself owns and runs.

Philosophies after philosophies, religions after religions, ideas after ideas he manufactured,

Only to counter and reject it later.

How can I believe in religion when only the hopeless land there.

Pushed to it not by his will, but by situation.

And never do I see anyone needing it at good times.

Why there is nothing than man made unites all.

Everybody opposes the other, even be it right.

Money and lust is the ONLY language all knows,

Be it two people of extreme opinion, but thy are ready to settle, in search wealth and meeting lust.

Be it men or women, both are just hopeless and dirty creature of all.

Men knows a women's lust for wealth and a women knows men's earns wealth to meet lust.

And they ever remain play this game with each other.

How can I ever expect from humans where they can't and don't know how to help themselves.

Why do I have to follow someone who inspires me when I am told there is none to help me except myself.

Then why I have been doomed to live among men when I only have to help myself.

And in that case why do i need anyone at all.

Why the idea of goodness manufactured by men gets defeated.

If I don't kill the wolf, the wolf will kill me.

There is no happiness can we ever expect.

Either some are unable to be happy while having it all.

While some acting to be happy and the  remaining can never be happy.

And remains no other folks who can inspire me.

How sorry, I feel to be a human, who eats, then shits, then eats the shit and this goes on endlessly.

Interestingly I always had the idea that what is followed by the mass, that must be right.

But I have been proved so wrong, and none taught me that except by myself.

Everybody body is after wealth, lust, ostentatious life and if I disagree they would tell that's "The Way".

How easy it is to polarize the mass through social media, mass media, popular idealogies,...

And none would even accept that they are being influenced & being fooled.

There remains no reason that gives me a purpose to live as a human.